Posted by: Dylan Stafford | December 1, 2013

Chapter Three

“All right man. Go over there and get it all figured out. Maybe she still loves your sorry ass,” Jeff said as he climbed into his car to head back to Dallas.

Brady was getting ready to drive over to Michelle’s, his first face-to-face talk with her since she’d broken up with him.

“Yeah thanks for nothing amigo,” Brady said. “Seriously, thanks for coming up last night and talking, and hanging out with Mom and Dad this morning.”

“What? A chance to listen to ‘The Johnson Family tries to get Brady back on the straight and narrow’? Wouldn’t miss it. And you know I love your mom’s cooking: next time, Peanut Butter Breakfast Burritos a la Joyce. Can’t wait.”

“Idiot.” Brady reached in the window to try to swat Jeff’s head.

Jeff adroitly leaned out of reach. “Fucker,” he replied, smiling.

Brady stood back and the gravel crunched as Jeff pulled away, the gate swinging open to let him exit.

The Texas countryside fell silent as Jeff’s car faded away. He took a breath. Alright Brady, he said to himself, let’s go meet Michelle and see what’s going on.

He was tired and his head still pulsed from the night before. Also, he was excited. He didn’t want to get his hopes up, but he couldn’t help it. She called him, after all.

He climbed up into his Jeep, found his beat up cassette, ZZ Top’s Greatest Hits, and plugged it in. La Grange was mid-song and he rewound to the start. The familiar riffs kicked in and he gunned the engine, popping the clutch and slinging gravel toward the Burr Oaks.

His Jeep bounced over the cattle guard and he swerved right, tires squealing. Nothing beats a Jeep, he laughed to himself, as the whole Jeep swayed. After a month in the shop his Jeep seemed as good as new. Maybe he was too.

* * * * * * * * * * *

It was a 20 minute country drive, from his family’s home to Michelle’s. She too lived outside the city limits, but on the opposite side of Denison. His cassette had time to play to the end and auto-reverse; ZZ Top songs aren’t that long.

Jesus just left Chicago was playing as he approached. He turned down the music, braked, and entered another big Texas spread, with another gravel driveway. A cattle pond, what Texans like to call a tank, reflected the afternoon sun. Before Michelle’s dad had gotten sick, he’d loved being out at his tank. He had a fishing dock and a floating house for his pet ducks.

Brady remembered a lot of visits here, birthdays and Christmases. He’d always assumed this place was going to be part of his future.

He parked the Jeep where it wouldn’t block anyone and got out. He heard the slam as the front screen closed.

His ex-future-fiancé walked towards him. Michelle was a pretty woman, with long brown hair and green eyes. She’d run cross-country in high school and still loved to jog. She had the strong stride of a person who liked exercise.

Brady’s nose itched as he walked toward her, and he blinked his eyes. His emotions were swirling. Part of him wanted to cry. Part of him was aroused. He took a slow, deep breath, pushing that all away and getting his game face.

They stopped in front of each other, awkwardly.

Brady waited, not sure what to do.

He spread his arms, offering a hug and leaning forward. Instinctively, he puckered, but Michelle turned her face out and placed her cheek on his chest, avoiding the kiss but accepting the hug.

“It’s good to see you,” she said.

“You too,” he said, holding the hug. The smell of her hair filled the space and he lowered his head. His cheek touched the top of her head, long enough for half a breath.

She pulled back, grasping his elbows and looking up at him. “Thank you for coming.”

Are her eyes moist? Brady wondered, hoped, as she looked up at him. But before he could tell for sure, she had turned and was walking towards the house.

“Come on,” she said. “Dad can’t wait to see you.”

He followed her, the smell of her hair still fresh on his cheek, her calves strong and tan. She was beautiful and she’d almost been his forever. He felt regret and hope, in equal doses.

Posted by: Dylan Stafford | September 15, 2013

Chapter 2

CHAPTER TWO

They got home around 4:00AM, laughing and leaning on each other drunk.

For old times’ sake they were playing the Oh No Ossifer, Not TOO Much game. One would mimic a policeman, sternly asking, “Have you been drinking and driving?” The other would feign sobriety, and sincerity, and mock-answer, Oh No Ossifer, not too much. They cracked each other up with this and fortunately didn’t meet any real policemen, a good thing since Brady’s probation would have been violated.

Brady’s family home sat on acreage that began on a bluff and then descended for almost a mile down to the Red River. Brady’s dad kept a cow-calf operation as a side-business, a gentleman rancher. The herd of thirty mama cows and their bull ranged unimpeded from the country-road entrance at the top all the way down to the river.

The home was two stories with a three-car garage, lots of windows and a Texas-sized porch. Three sturdy Burr oak trees, that had lived on the land much longer than the people, stood out front. Brady parked beneath the trees and he and Jeff had come in the side entrance and crashed in Brady’s temporary room.

A very few hours later it was time for breakfast; late night or not, Sunday morning breakfast was not optional under the Johnson’s roof.

Brady’s mom and dad were already up, at the island in the large open kitchen. With a picture window behind them, the sun streaked across the Red River valley while the river itself was still hidden under the early morning fog.

Jarrod Johnson, Brady’s father, was a life-long Texan. He’d built a successful insurance business in Denison and he had taken a lot of time teaching the trade to Brady. He came from the walk-don’t-run school of manhood and reputation mattered to him, one reason Brady’s drinking bothered him. Another reason was that a man should be able to handle his drinking.

Brady’s mother Joyce held the family together with church, humor and crazy-cooking. She grew up in Denison and met Jarrod in junior high school when his family moved to town.

They dated through high school and then she’s gone to Trinity in San Antonio and studied English Literature. Jarrod went to North Texas State and studied business. They kept dating during college and got married right after.

As successful as her husband was, Joyce brought family money into the marriage too, money which had bought the land they lived on.

It took Joyce and Jarrod a long time to get pregnant. Toward the end of trying they were told they couldn’t get pregnant, that they should start exploring adoption. Miraculously, Brady was conceived. He was born healthy and Joyce and Jarrod were grateful. They would later try for another pregnancy but it never happened.

Joyce hummed as she prepared huevos rancheros a la Joyce. She was bold in the kitchen and in life. Today she started with the Mexican recipe but was liberally branching out, adding American pancakes loaded with blueberries, bananas and walnuts. She had everything ready, for when the boys got up.

Jeff came in first, the advance scouting party. He’d run fingers through his hair and his face was shiny from splashing water on it. Being back at the Johnson’s home brought out the boy in Jeff.

“Oh Jeff, it’s so nice to see you. We haven’t had you out here in so long,” said Joyce, chopping walnuts at one site while she kept an eye on tortillas frying on the stove.

“You too Mrs. Johnson,” he said as he kissed her on the cheek. “Mornin’ Mr. Johnson,” Jeff said to Brady’s dad who sat reading his newspaper at the end of the island.

Mr. Johnson nodded a silent hello back, looking over his reading glasses and his Sunday Denison Herald.

Joyce smelled last night on Jeff’s clothes but didn’t mention it. “You practically used to live here, but now you are so busy with your big life. We never see you. How’s Dallas? I saw your mom at the supermarket a week back.”

“Dallas is fine,” Jeff said. “Yeah, Mom told me that you all caught up.”

Brady came in the kitchen next, yawning and looking for orange juice and coffee both, OJ to hydrate and coffee to wake up.

“Looks like somebody had a long night. I heard the gate swing open pretty late, or should I say pretty early,” said Brady’s dad.

“Morning Dad. Morning Mom,” said Brady, also kissing his mom on the cheek and arm-hugging her shoulders. He made his way to the fridge for orange juice, and then poured coffee too. The swirling smells of Mexican food and pancakes made his stomach turn. He probably drank too much he realized.

“Yeah, it was pretty late. We shut down Speedie Jax and then went to Denny’s out on the highway and kept talking,” said Brady, getting tense that his dad would grill him about his probation.

“Why you two can’t talk when the sun is shining baffles me. Did you meet with that new account, Mr. Scherer, yesterday after your community service time?” his Dad asked instead.

“Yeah. Mr. Scherer freed up space on his busy schedule to meet me Saturday afternoon late, after his golf round. We actually talked for about an hour. He’s thinking it over and we’re talking again Monday. I think I’m getting the contract,” said Brady.

“Well that’s good. He needs to work with us. His old policy is a dog. I hope you showed him that we can save him money and provide better protection,” his dad replied.

Save money and provide better protection was his dad’s mantra and Brady knew it well. “I gave him the whole pitch Dad. I think he’s gonna sign. I’m going back out there tomorrow to close the deal.”

“Did Brady show you his letter Jeff?” Joyce asked, changing the subject.

“Yes, Mrs. Johnson, he did. He made me drive all the way up from Dallas to read his miraculous news that the University of Chicago admission committee made an egregious error,” Jeff joked.

Brady looked down at his coffee. His dad made an unpleasant face, but covered it up quickly. Jeff had been around this family forever and he noticed the face. So did Joyce, filling a bowl with tomatillo salsa to put on top of the eggs.

“Oh Jeff, silly as ever,” said Joyce.

“Chicago. Fancy PHDs. who’ve never built anything with their own hands,” Brady’s dad closed the newspaper. “Brady, I need you here. I’ve got a business that makes money now. No student loans and you can run the whole thing when I’m done.”

Brady’s head throbbed. He had drunk too much. One problem of a family business was facing your boss on a Sunday morning, especially when you had a hangover. No privacy. No space.

“I know Dad. I know how hard you’ve worked to build your business,” said Brady.

“We’ve worked,” his father interrupted. “Me. You. Mom. The whole family has worked to build this.”

“Ok, how hard we have worked. But it’s still your deal Dad. What if they actually taught me something at Chicago? What if I could come back and actually add something to the business?”

“Brady, you do add to it, every single day. You’ve learned more than you realize, working for me, working for Deloitte. Why do you think I built a business anyway? Why take on the risk and the hassle? I did it to take care of our family.”

Jeff drank coffee and listened. This conversation had been going on for years, but Brady’s recent events, and being back home, had re-kindled the whole debate.

Brady wanted to make his dad happy. In high school Brady was like an apprentice to his dad, running errands, filing, helping out. During the Texas A&M years, Brady worked summers for him too. He’d even gotten a Business Administration degree, just like Dad, a useful education to eventually take over the family business. After college, Brady’s grades had been good enough to land the job at Deloitte Consulting, but he still helped his dad part-time.

Dad continued, “And besides, you already have a business degree. What you learned at A&M is just as valuable as anything they’ll teach you at Chicago. Those Aggies may serve it on paper plates, but it’s the same meal.”

Brady didn’t say anything. His dad was probably right. He usually was and that was the toughest part about this conversation. Brady loved his dad and his dad loved him. But they were father and son, and this was Texas, and it was hard to talk sometimes.

Chicago probably was a bad idea. But if Brady let his guard down, if his dad knew he had any doubts, then his dad could be relentless. Brady needed time to think.

“I also told Jeff about Michelle calling me, that I’m seeing her today,” Brady said, seeing a chance to change the subject.

Now it was Jarrod Johnson’s turn to fidget, if only a tiny bit. He thought Michelle was the perfect woman for Brady, that it was only a matter of time before they uncrossed the stars and figured out they were right for each other. Then Brady would finally see what a perfect life he could have staying right here in Denison.

Brady suspected his dad’s view about Michelle, and that only made his love life more confusing, sorting out his own feelings about getting dumped while watching his father’s silent disappointment.

“When you see Michelle and her family today, send them our best,” said Jarrod.

“And let’s eat!” said Mom. “Juevos rancheros a la Joyce. In honor of having Jeff with us, all my men together. Brady I want you fortified for your big visit with Michelle this afternoon, and I need to leave for church soon. You’re all welcome to come with me, by the way.”

None of the men accepted the invitation. Instead, they all moved over to the table that was set for a feast: eggs, beans, fried tortillas, tomatillo salsa and a large platter of blueberry and banana pancakes loaded with walnuts.

They held hands and bowed their heads. Jarrod said grace.

Posted by: Dylan Stafford | July 30, 2013

Chapter 1

CHAPTER ONE

“You know why doesn’t Texas slide off the map, right into the Gulf of Mexico?” Jeff asked across the booth to his best friend Brady.

“Because Oklahoma sucks! That’s why!”

“Man that’s an old joke,” Brady said.

“Old, but appropriate. Look at ‘em over there. I mean really, those family trees ain’t got no forks in ‘em. Just brothers and sisters makin’ babies as far back as the eye can see,” Jeff continued, looking at the Oklahomans who’d crossed the border for a Saturday night in Texas.

Jeff was compact and muscled, with dark hair and an angular face. Brady was tall and lanky, well over six feet with sandy blond hair, broad shoulders and a gentle face.

“Why you’ve never gotten beat-to-hell still amazes me,” Brady said.

“The truth will set you free, my brother, right after it pisses you off,” said Jeff. “I piss people off… but they’re better for it. It’s a karma thing.”

“You’re a goof. You wouldn’t know karma if it sat on your head,” Brady smiled. “Thanks for coming up here.”

“My pleasure man. Gotta come back to our roots. Get back with our people.”

“To our people,” Brady laughed as they toasted with their long-neck beers, the clink lost in the din of Saturday night in Speedy Jax. Denison’s biggest juke-joint, Speedy Jax lacked polish, sophistication and basic hygiene, but it was the place to be if you didn’t have anywhere better to go. Brady and Jeff hadn’t been here in a while.

“Oh hell yeah! That’s right. Ok-la-ho-ma Su-ucks,” Jeff howled, raising his head to the dirty ceiling. After high school, Jeff had gone to the University of Texas, while Brady went to Texas A&M. Those schools were bitter in-state rivals, but in north Texas, everyone agreed on hating Oklahoma.

“Hey fuck you!” A man was passing by Jeff and Brady’s booth, bringing beers to his friends. Speedy Jax was at high tide and the mood was still good. Fights wouldn’t start until later.

Brady caught the big man’s eyes, “Sorry man. He’s just drunk. Ignore him.”

“Yeah I’m just drunk,” Jeff smiled a fake apology. The man scowled, but disappeared into the crowd.

Jeff winked at Brady, “Yeah tonight I’m drunk, but tomorrow I’ll be sober. And Oklahoma will still su-uck!”

“Shut up fool or you are gonna get us in trouble,” Brady grinned.

“Ok, Ok. I’m just fuckin’ around. Nobody here is going to do nothin’.”

Denison borders the Red River, 75 miles north of Dallas, and is an old railroad town. Jeff and Brady were friends since kindergarten. They didn’t go to the same church, but they’d been in school together from fifth grade through high school.

“So, what’s your big news? Why’d you make me cancel a Dallas Saturday night and drive all the way up here?” asked Jeff.

“Well check this out. Read this.” Brady handed Jeff a white envelope.

The return address said The University of Chicago. Jeff pulled out the letter and his eyes widened as he read the first line,

It is with great pleasure that the faculty of the University of Chicago, Master of Business Administration Program offer you admission…

Brady’s grandmother was from Illinois. She had gotten a Master’s degree in Library Science from the University of Chicago and Brady grew up hearing her tell about the wonders of the institution. He’d applied to Chicago, even though he thought he couldn’t get in, partially in honor of her memory.

“No shit?” said Jeff. “No shit? Your girlfriend’s dumped you. You’re on leave from your job and doing fake rehab. You’ve basically moved back in with your mom and dad, and now you get admitted to Chicago? You’re a dumb, lucky bastard.”

“Crazy, right?” Brady replied. “It came Thursday, forwarded in the mail and mixed up with all my mom’s hundred clothes catalogues.”

“And? Are you going to go?” Jeff looked at Brady, serious now. This was news.

“Absolutely maybe,” Brady swirled his beer in a tight little circle. “I don’t know.”

Brady’s life had gone from perfect to shaky, fast. Two months ago, Brady had been getting ready to buy an engagement ring, for Michelle. They’d been living together almost a year and a half in his apartment in Dallas. She was student-teaching, establishing her credentials to be a high school science teacher.

But Brady got drunk one Saturday night and crashed his Jeep. He’d been driving alone and walked away basically unharmed but his Jeep had needed a month of repairs. Scared, Michelle put a brake on things, moving back to her parents’ home at the end of her teaching semester. The crash confirmed a pattern that she’d been seeing in Brady, but trying to ignore, that he was making bad choices when alcohol was involved. If she’d suspected Brady was getting ready to propose, she had set that to the side as she moved home.

Brady and Michelle started dating in high school, when he was a senior and she was a sophomore, and continued long-distance while he was at Texas A&M, and later, when Michelle went to SMU in Dallas.

After Texas A&M, Brady got a great job working as a consultant for Deloitte, first in Austin, but soon transferring to Dallas. He was there while Michelle completed her and senior year, and then began her student teaching.

Brady’s accident required him to go to court and it could have cost him his job, but his father hired a good attorney and a plea bargain was arranged. Brady was on probation for a year, had to attend 90 meetings of Alcoholics Anonymous, and do 120 hours of community service.

At the time of his Jeep crash, Brady’s team at work was between engagements and so it hadn’t been a big deal for Brady to take leave of absence. He split time between Dallas and Denison. He attended AA meetings in both places. At each meeting, he collected one signature on his court card en route to the 90 required. He did his community service hours on the weekends, and helped his dad out part-time. He was also licking his wounds from Michelle breaking up with him. It was a busy summer.

“Here’s the deal,” Brady said to Jeff. “I called you up here to see the letter, sure. I mean, it’s frickin’ great—I never thought they’d accept me. But there’s something else,” Brady paused. “Michelle called me yesterday.”

“What? That is too much. After everything? What’d she say?”

“She said she wants to see me; she said she wants to talk. And, her dad’s gotten worse. His cancer treatments are wearing him out. She asked if I could come hang out with them on Sunday,” Brady said.

“Man that’s messed up, after you two… broke up,” Jeff took a slow draw off his longneck. “Did you tell her about Chicago?”

“That’s the funny thing. I’ve been waiting so long for that letter, hoping maybe they’d let me in off the waitlist. You know, I thought maybe that would change her mind, show her I’m not a total screw-up.”

He continued, “But she caught me off guard, calling me. Then we started talking about her dad and then she asked me to come out to see him. I hung up the phone and a few minutes later realized I hadn’t told her I got admitted.”

“No problemo amigo,” said Jeff. “You can tell her tomorrow. Or not.”

Jeff had seen every episode of the Brady-and-Michelle show, all the way back to a sixth grade playground fight when Brady defended her honor against a much bigger seventh grade bully who was teasing her. Jeff witnessed Brady’s senior year, when the two finally got their act together and became boyfriend and girlfriend. And he’d seen the last two years, where Michelle and Brady played house in Dallas, getting close to getting engaged. And then he saw Brady’s big accident, drinking and driving and wrecking his Jeep, and Michelle having second thoughts and dumping him.

Neither said anything. The bar was loud in the background, but it was quiet between the old friends. After a while they started talking again. They took the rest of the night talking and drinking.

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